★.When U start talking, I start walking

i can only name less than 5 of his songs,i was born in 1989 in China...i gotta be honest that i only get to know MJ better after he passed away becuz of the tv...magazines...newpaper...radio...etc.

im sorry that he is gone forever,i really do! cuz he means a lot to a huge amount of ppl all over the world. watching the fans crying,friends shocking...for those ppl,MJ somehow lighted their lives and gave them strength for being who they really are...

but for me...? sorry,its none of my business...and stop showing me that you have a so called good taste of art by telling me how much MJ means to you while you dont even know how to spell his name,god knows you dont even listen to songs in english 凸-。-凸 it makes me sick VA BENE ???!!!

R.I.P MJ,those who loved you will still love you and you are always in their hearts,BUT NOT MINE^^

 

 

 

my dad's gonna celebrate his 50th bday this weekend...my...his hair going gray and...he is still my father,the father that combed my hair when i was 6,the father that has never ever shouted at me,the father that has given me everything and made my life safe,happy and complete...with a lot tears and heart-breaking moments though...my fault  LOL...and also my dearest mom who is turning 50 one month later than my father...i love you so mcuh...once again,with a lot fights and misunderstandings...still,my fault

 

never thought about that before and now it just pumps into my mind that one day im gonna be 50 years old...

what kind of life will i be living at my fifties?well...i dont know exactly but at least its not a life which my parents are living now...its complicated to define the lifestyle they are having and i cant judge if its good or whether its right or not. cause i have no idea what they want and what are they feeling turning 50 now...do they feel pity when they are 50 without having another child,a crazy teenager life,a trip to another country etc.

and what can i give them? straight A's? a famous college? a cake for the big bday? or nothing...? Parents want nothng from their children ...and i hate this saying OFFICIALLY from now on! for god's sake(im not religious though)...it doesn't make things easier daddy and mummy...cause i dont wanna owe nodody NEVER EVER...IM JUST LIVING MY LIFE!

 

pls stop yelling at me when i come home in the morning light,we both know it doesn't work much. pls stop trying to figure out who im hanging out with,i told you they are just friends that you dont know. pls pls pls live for urselves,cause ur 50 years old...1-10,u didn't even know u were living,11-20,u thought u were living for teachers and parents(text books),21 and afterwards,family...children...parents...jobs...they are just some parts of YOUR lives...but Your lives...so...live ur lives for urselves!

 

anyways,i love you papa and mama!